This is going to be one of, if not the most personal posts that I’ve shared to date.
Some people would be ok with keeping the experience to themselves but that’s just not my style. I know there are many others out there who can learn from what I recently experienced and if I can assist in helping one person leave behind some of their mental scars then it was all worth it.
Although this post is not about Empower Network, if it wasn’t for David Wood and the magical people I have made friends with inside of our community, none of this would have happened… and for that I am grateful.
You guys are awesome.
Anyway, recently I was in Chicago for yet another incredible Empower Network event where I was expecting nothing short of awesomeness.
Having had 2 MASSIVE breakthrough in San Diego and Austin, I knew it was going to be great.
But I had no idea I was going to uncover something that had been lurking in my subconsciousness for the past 25 years.
I had a conversation with someone I had met at the previous to 2 events just after lunch and had asked him if he had any major take aways this time around.
“Nothing huge… just a few nuggets here and there.” he said.
I agreed with him and said because I had such big breakthroughs the past 2 events, I wasn’t sure if I was going to experience anything on the same level as I had previously.
Boy was I wrong.
The day continued on and I found myself surrounded by 5,000 other badasses for what was to be the last exercise of the weekend. David Wood the co-founder of Empower Network had us close our eyes and shout out the answers to a series of questions.
All of which I had know the answers to as I had done this very same exercise twice before. Once in Austin and the second time on a lice call that we have every Monday night.
I figured I am here, so I might as well make the most of it and follow along for the third time. I’m glad I did.
What was about to come was something that could have saved me years of anger, frustration and struggle if only I had known about this before.
Dave asked the sea of people what is was that we wanted most to achieve.
Shouts of various income claims filled the auditorium.
“What is that going to do for you when you achieve that?” David said.
People again shouted out answers like “FREEDOM!!”, PROOF THAT IT WORKS” and HAPPINESS!!”.
And again Dave said ” and what will THAT do for you?”.
This happened over and over again with a variety and things coming out.
“HELPING OTHERS!”, “MAKING THE WORLD A BETTER PLACE!”, “INSPIRING OTHERS!!” were just a few of the answers that I heard.
All of them were right.
All of them were great.
But I had a thought pop into my head that was unlike all of the others.
And when it came to me, I felt a warm wave rush over my body.
It was impossible to ignore.
I wanted to be worthy of the love of my mom.
What is interesting in that is the fact that my mom does love me.
She is supportive of me.
So why was I having this kind of thought?
When I was 12 years old, my mom moved away from my family to go to school in Vancouver for a few years. She never really came home. Not for good anyway.
She decided to leave my dad, myself and my 2 brothers which left us to be raised by my dad. Which I’m sure raising 3 boys by yourself is no easy feat.
Especially when the oldest is schizophrenic (which was still unknown to us at that time) the middle was transforming from an “A” student to one who skipped school, partied and did other things parents aren’t too proud of.
Then there was me.
A young, heartbroken little kid who looked up to the middle brother and who follows suit in his actions. Almost to a “T” in many cases. Some where even worse.
Fast forward 25 years later and even though I have had a discussion with my mom about why she left us, I still harboured a lot of anger towards her… and I knew it.
The week lading up to going to Chicago, I thought of why was it that the past 3 months I had done so little towards growing my business and hitting my targets that I set for myself.
Targets that I knew I could hit and am 100% capable of doing.
Something has been holding me back mentally, that much I knew but I wasn’t sure what the hell it was.
Immediately after this exercise with David, I saw my 2 friends Chris and Cris and asked them of their experience with it.
I told them of the thought that came into my head and the wave of energy that ran over my body.
In one word, Cris brought me to tears unlike anything Ive ever experienced before.
She said this to me.
I heard that word and instantly cried like a little girl.
That was it.
I had talked to my mom about it before, but I had never forgiven her for leaving us.
I was still carrying around all that anger towards her.
And being unworthy of her love and of success.
Pretty messed up isn’t it?
I am a confident person. I know I am capable of doing great things in my life…and I have.
But yet I have been holding myself back from really breaking through and making an impact on thousands of people’s lives because of the bullshit I have been hanging on to for so many years.
The first words that came out of my mouth after I regained my composure was this.
“I’m ready to go and make a million dollars now.”
And I am.
I can finally move on and get busy helping others.
As soon as I got back home to Vancouver, I called my mom and asked her to come over.
We had an amazing conversation and I got more clarity on why she had to do what she did. I know it wasn’t easy for her to do, but I am proud of her for doing it. It was something she had to do.
I called up my dad the following day as I was eager to find out more information and see what I could learn from him. I had yet another incredible conversation with him. Probably the most heart to heart conversation that we’ve ever had.
Not only do I feel better about myself and what I am capable of doing, I now feel closer to both of my parents than I have ever felt before.
And for that, I am very grateful.
Thank you Empower Network.
Before you go, I want to challenge you to tell YOUR story and share it with the world.
You never know just how many people have gone through similar experiences to you and how it might impact their life if they just were to hear about how you handled something.
Your story can make the world a better place, even if you can’t see how it would right now.
If you want to start telling your story and need a vehicle to do so, or would like to learn of other methods of how you can grow yourself and become a better person, then you might just want to check this out.
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